me, my life.

hey all!

well....a little update is in order methinks.....

you know those headaches ive been having? well i was at the doctors yesterday, and he had a look at my eyes, as a possible cause for the headaches (SEVERE, they kept me up last night, AFTER taking a few painkillers) and he couldnt see anything and he didnt have the equipment to look at the back of my eyes. so he referred me to the eye centre at city hospital, he had a look and couldnt find anything....although....when he was using the slit lamp on my eyes (the one where you sit your chin on a 'plinth') and when he shone the light in my left eye, it hurt like hell, around the eyeball and along the right, left and back of my head. but that pain was bearable to a certain extent. as soon as he shone it in my right eye, i had to move away almost straight away. he looked as best he could and couldnt find anything. but it seems that i have one quite major symptom, and thats 'Photophobia'( NO, NOT a phobia of photos!!lol) thats basically where my eye/s are sensitive to light and can cause headaches. however, the persistent headaches that im having are not consistent with normal cases of photophobia. that is to say that they should not last as long as mine do, and painkillers and analgesics ought to have some sort of effect on them. which they do for a VERY short while (we're talking half hour, an hour max and thats on 2 500mg of ibuprofen) and on top of that, the vision in my right eye seems to be deteriorating slowly. its now a little blurry and blinking and squinting sorts it out, bearing in mind that my left eye is meant to be the weaker one.

last night, i was woken with the headaches, really bad ones. i couldnt go back to sleep. so i had an emergency appointment at the doctors, and he basically said he cant figure it out, somethings triggering the headaches and he cant figure it out, it goes beyond his expertise. so i've now been referred to a neurologist as well as being given 500mg co-codamol tablets which i have to take two of 4 times a day. they take the edge off, but thats it.

i now need to book an appointment at my opticians and get my eyes seen to again, as i do not want to be stuck with deteriorating eyesight. so that sucks.

also had the dentists yesterday too, had the root filling done. and i was partially right, that the other dentist had fucked up the procedure. he had MISSED the root, gone through my gum and hit the next tooth, and put ONE pin into there, where he should've put at least 2/4. dentist left that pin in as it wasnt causing me any problems and if he removed it there would've been risk of infection as the wall of the tooth is perforated. and i need to go back on the 20th of march to have the other 2 roots seen to.

otherwise i feel like shit! hows everyone elses life?

goodbyes.

2 Comments 28.2.06 21:28, comment

feeling....crappy/shit/knackered/crappy/crappy/shit/(did i mention knackered?)

hey all

feeling absolutely rubbish right now.

have migraines, sore throat, abdominal pains for no apparent fucking reason, chest pains, muscle pains, cant swallow properly. and due to the wonderfully fucked up system of booking apointments, ive got to wait until monday to see a doctor! bearing in mind i booked the apointment on....wednesday. stupid fuck-arsed system.

otherwise than that, loads and loads of random crap in my head, stuff i shouldnt even by thinking about and/or considering, but hey, we cant help what we think right? its always there, always will be there and theres no running away from it. sure we can try and keep it at bay for a bit but its gna crop up again isnt it?

sister (older one) has been really worried about me too, was on fone to her on wednesday, this was at the peak of all this 'aches and pains', and i've realised no matter how much i may hate particular members of my family due to them breaking trust i gave them, she is the only one that will EVER come through for me, the ONLY one who is understanding enough. and i've been invited over to hers for dinner on sunday, guess what dad said when she told him i was having dinner at hers? 'no he's not'. me being me, i argued back and said why not, its my sisters house. and he agreed, albeit grudgingly. i cant see what the fuck could be so wrong with me having dinner at my own sisters.

o yeah, that research project? got turned down, data protection act, so feel even crapper. have thought up a new idea, am in process of writing a load of letters to various hospitals and practices. hopefully someone will offer me a placement.

school seems to be going good for once, was bloody freezing today though. lol. was snowing here as well.

had that homework club again today, martin bailey didnt show up, wanker. may also be doing a climbing course on the 8th of march, should be fun.

managed to get my lcd screen working, is 'displaying' at the end of my desk right now! tis purdy! lol.

q managed to get a new router too, came yesterday, ive got the internet back today, (oh, only after my sister badgered him to plug me in)

getting on with new sister-in-law quite well, dont know if i mentioned that i wasnt getting along with her a while back, but i am now, she's fun! lol. ah well. tis all good otherwise.

also have a root filling booked in on monday! and i duno if i blogged, but ive got a feeling its the same tooth as the one that was filled last year.....and if it was that tooth that got infected again....there'l be hell to pay for.

well, must go. am excruciatingly tired, and need to be awake early to study as have 2 tests early next week! and i wanna have a bath!

goodnite all

(o, and my new nephews name is: Raza Ali Bhatti, raza meaning well wisher ali being our family name, bhatti being the Entire family name.)

well must dash!

goodbyes!

3 Comments 24.2.06 21:54, comment

hey all

well today hasnt been a particularly bad day to be honest. asked at dentist about that Nuffield science project, and he said he'd have a look over it and discuss it with the practition manager. should be ok though.



soooo in knackered. and i having odd dreams. i completely and utterly ing it. too confusing, and im not the kind of person who can just leave something like that! i'll think into it more and more and just confuse myself until im completely stressed out! lol.

well not particularly been up to much either. schools actually going quite good, had duty again this morning. great position of authority i have. 'OI, pick that up, and put it in the bin NOW'.lol. and i can tell them all to hurry up and get out too! lol. yup. what lessons did have today.....psychology, was good, got let out slightly early today, teacher seems really nice though, getting to know her a little better, finding out what makes her tick! lol. then had maths, well statistics, with Dr Smith, was an alrite lesson to be honest. yup. then 'break', or recess as they like to call it, in the last 10 mins quickly drew up a few isomers of heptane, as i thought it mite've been set for homework, couldnt remember (didnt write it down, i know, my fault!) quickly did it, and went to chemistry........everyone but 4 people got kicked out for not doing the homework. lol. damn was i glad i'd done the work! lol. yup. then had biology, and then work experience!lol.

amazingly tired though. yup.lol. o well. have a half day on friday, and i've got a nice shiny new T6963C lcd coming tomorrow/wednesday!!!! so that afternoon has now been designated as tinkering afternoon, well, thats provided dont go out. but mite do actually...depends on the state of my 'finance'!lol. i not getting EMA! most of my mates all get EMA, and i start feeling bad asking dad for cash all the time, and i dont want to get a job just yet, as i dont want it interfering with my studies!! lol. crap excuse i know. o well. lol. yup.

well must go! got some 'voluntary homework' i might do for statistics.



ooooo has anyone here heard....'Tea-House Moon' by Enya?! its good!lol. its just an instrumental, or rather 'a piece of music', but its really good! lol.yup, thats all.

bye!

6.2.06 19:19, comment

HEY!

well has been a while since I last blogged, so here I go again!!!!lol

Well not been up to particularly much to be honest, Han's in disneyland until late tomorrow with school, tis very weird not being able to just pick up the phone or text or something.

Not been up to particularly much either though.lol. just noticed I've written that out TWICE! lol. o well. just been in library a lot, getting revision and work done. did I ever mention that I NEVER fall asleep sitting up? well I fell asleep in the library today. lol. god I'm tired. been having some rather odd dreams. lol.

Night before last, I had a dream about horses! lol. was weird. (as you can imagine!) was just in a random field somewhere, a really really beautiful field (don't know if I've ever mentioned before, but I LOVE the countryside, just open space, grass, rolling hills....bliss! lol) anyway, I was on this hill, and the next thing I know, I'm at a stables, and theres this really nice looking grey horse, and its eating something out of my hand, then all of a sudden I'm riding it! lol. then I woke up, and then in semi-consciousness, I fell asleep and had another dream. not going to go into that one though.

College, recently, has been fun too, on top of all the work, and its all good.lol.

had an interesting day today, doing a CREST award type thing, it gives me 20 UCAS points, and basically, I join a team within a company, and as part of an existing project, I get to conduct my own piece of research, now, the problem is that there are very few Dental Laboratories around! lol. the ideas I've got arent that bad, the first is investigating Gum Recession, and is it REALLY linked only to age, or are there other factors, and the other, which I'm quite interested in is Retainers and Braces. 2 part study, focusing on Retainers and then Braces. targeting Pre-20 year olds, investigating whether or not the patient is comfortable with having the brace, and whether or not worries about how they look may have caused them to perhaps hold back from going ahead with the treatment. and with retainers, the idea is to investigate COMFORT! lol. well the average time a person is given a retainer for (pre-fixed brace) is usually six months if I remember rightly. and basically, im wondering if after the first four weeks of having the brace, is the brace still uncomfortable, does it cause you to perhaps alter the way you speak (lisp's) and has that been a factor in you perhaps not using your brace as strictly as you should? I mean, we all know what its like being in school and everything.lol.

soooo....this is where you 20sixers come in, have you ever had a brace? have you ever had a retainer/s? are/were you comfortable with it in? both in terms of looks and 'pain' comfort! lol.

well must go now. my book awaits! lol

nite nite all.

1 Comment 31.1.06 21:54, comment

has been a while....

hey all!

has been a while since i last blogged!lol. almost more than a week methinks!

o well!

lol. well not been up to much really, just studying hard!lol. getting into the new timetable ive set myself, and its working great so far!lol. not too bad, some may think its over the top, but if it helps me, then it helps me!lol. basically, go to college as is normal, on mondays i have a half day, but i now have work eperience, that finishes at around half 4/5, head into town, go to library, sit and work in there until 8, tuesday, full day of school, get school bus into town, in library for quarta past 4 (after getting my baguette!lol), wednesday, half day, every 2nd week, go to squash, every other week, at 12.40 (lunch time) get bus into town, get something to eat, head to library, work through until 8 again, thursday, full day, bus into town, library until 8, friday, full-ish day, finish a little early, go into town, work through until about 7, and then home, organize the weeks notes into their respective folders, saturday, library from 10-5, but thats only on a day that dont have anything planned with friends, if i do have something planned for saturday, then i work on sunday, all day at home, if not, then i relax on sunday!lol. it mite seem like a lot for some people, but its working for me!lol, basically, in those few hours, get whatever little homework i have out of the way, in the remainder of that time, re-write class notes neatly into blue ink, (take class notes in pencil, the way i do my notes is pencil> blue biro> blue/red/green highlighting key points as a final copy and then eventually typing!)and then just work around the subjects ive got!lol. tis good! and this wednesday, im helping out a mate from my old school with her maths!lol, should interesting teaching maths. dont know if ive mentioned, but i get really irritated when someone doesnt 'get' something which is really simple like multiplying out brackets!lol. I know that perhaps what is simple for me, may, or may not, be simple for someone else, but it still doesnt change that though!lol.



well must go! dan browns deception point awaits!!!

goodbyes all!

hope everyone is enjoying college!lol

nite

(and can someone explain what this move is all about at 20six please!)

22.1.06 23:06, comment

hola

hey all!

well not got long left on here, need to be off around 20past-ish, got summaries to write up!!

aaaah ive been busy the last few days!lol. still got psychology revision left to do. lol. well thats what tomorrows for i spose!!

there was a family dinner at my sisters today, decided id house-sit, was nice.lol. peace and quiet!lol. got dinner at uncles (one that i get along with quite well!lol) tomorrow, should be fun.

well, must go! nucleic division awaits!!

hope everyone had a good new years

goodbyes

1 Comment 2.1.06 22:19, comment

i hate my temper

i hate my temper

i hate being angry

i hate being pissed off

i hate being annoyed

yet no matter how hard i try, i cant do ANYTHING about it

no matter how hard i might try

to bottle it in

it worms itself out eventually

goodbyes.

29.12.05 00:34, comment

shit, shit, shit, shit, shit, shit, shit, shit........shit.

shit.

i knocked the chair i was sitting on against my brothers pc. this pc was recently upgraded with about....oooh...800quids of stuff. cue a loud 'CLICK' burning smell and me rushing around the back of the machine to pull the power cord out.

power supply, thankfully, was the only thing that appears to have 'gone'. and thankfully also have a 36month warranty on it. so thats going back. im gna deal with it. feel so fookin bad tho. ARGH

well im off to go and deal with an RMA.

goodbyes.

28.12.05 13:45, comment

well it would appear my BASIC algebra is fucked up. that means, im most likely not going to be getting any sleep at all tonite, target is 6 sections of 1 textbook, 5 of another and a review exercise. it WILL get completed tonite.







just a reminder, biology notes are ready.







thank you.

2 Comments 26.12.05 20:43, comment

hellloooo all!

hows everyone enjoying christmas?!!

mines not been too bad, had a HUGE dinner, god, was surprised at how much was actually cooked, and again, was surprised with how almost all of it was finished, and again surprised with how much i managed to eat! (really need to watch what i eat. methinks school gym at lunch times is a good idea) but otherwise not been up to much!

have a new 'skin' on opera (my web browser, dont like shitty MS internet explorer) tis great! all of the tabs are along the BOTTOM of the screen, with the address bar and bookmarks along the top! great!

well must dash!lol

hope everyones enjoying their christmas

goodbyes!

25.12.05 20:49, comment